It has been a crazy week so far with my woman issues coming again, ya know, you would think I'd be used to the pain by now, NOPE, I'm not. Also, our slightly psycho dog, Duke, had a little snip-snip procedure. So, he whined all through the night, and the husb was gone because he lead worship for 21 Days of Prayer in Bham this morning. (side-bar, so very proud of him!!!) I haven't seen him since Monday night for like 30 minutes. We do not do well as far as communication goes if we do not see each other for a substantial amount of time. All of that to say, it's been crazy, busy, and stressful week and it's only Wednesday.
Okay, back to the drugs, btw, never thought I'd be here. Taking drugs to get pregnant? Do what?! I told a friend just last night, that I honestly feel like I'm in a dream. If someone would have told me 5 or 6 years ago that Dru and I would have this much trouble conceiving, I would not have believed them.
Here they are... just 5 little (potentially helping me get pregnant) magic pills :)
I just took my first pill and I have to say I felt all sorts of emotions as I was taking it. I didn't think I was going to have to do this. I didn't think that God would allow this to continue this long.. for us to have to wait and trudge along on this journey for this long. I always assumed that since I technically didn't have any ovulation issues that I would not have to do clomid. Um, I guess that's why I'm not the doc. I'm very interested to see how my body reacts and if I feel any of the side-effects... who knows.. it could balance my-crazy-self out.
The side-effects are not very outrageous. We're talking like irritability (got that now), mood swings (got that now), nausea, headaches (huh, definitely have those). So pretty much, I've already got all the symptoms. My poor children, I just hope I don't bite their heads off with all these hormones raging inside of me. I might just need to step outside and take a chill pill, like I tell them to do sometimes. HAHA! :)
So, this is the deal. I will take clomid for 4 more days. Today is CD (cycle day) 2 and I will take them until CD 6. Then, on CD 10 I will start testing for ovulation. Once I get a smiley face, it's time for the IUI! I'm already full of excitement, but also terrified that it will bring more disappointment.
Please continue to pray for us.
Here are a few specific prayer request:
1. Dru and I would continue to communicate and love each other as we continue on this journey.
2. My emotions would be steady and that my eyes would be on Jesus and not my circumstances. (thanks to a sweet friend for this reminder!!!)
3. My stress level would remain at a manageable level.
4. Wisdom - pray for us as we make these decisions related to our family and our future. I want them to most of all, to glorify the Lord.
5. For the Lord to allow my brain to rest and for my focus to be on taking care of Dru, spending time with friends/family, and teaching my kiddos!
Seriously, so grateful for your love and prayers. And bravo to you for reading this epically long post.